the carolers

call me sentimental
call me a softie
take away my man card
whatever
but standing in this crowd
surrounded by strangers
with smiles
watching the men
sing with eyes pressed
sing with eyes closed
and outstretched hands
as if trying to grab ahold of
something to steady them
with voices blended
their carols of christmas
echoed and filled the hallowed halls
and i turned when the song
was finished
i turned and walked away
because i just about couldn't take it
anymore
and i didn't want to lose my composure
in front of
anyone
especially
myself